It's a thin line between complaining and commiserating. You run the risk of being The Guy that's always complaining about everything, you stop getting invited to stuff, your house burns down, you move to a cave in the woods. It's no good. I've been trying to focus on positives more lately, for that exact reason. I -think- that whenever I complain it's relatable, but you never know. I make what I think is a witty observation, I imagine the seinfeld bass in the background, then google ads about caves start appearing before my youtube videos...
Anyways, the point here is that I'm breaking from the live laugh love policy to declare, for everyone, that august is one of the worst months and good riddance, fuck off, see you next year. When I was a kid, we went back to school in august. For americans, there's no holidays in august. august is the month of 115 degree weather. august seduced my wife and stole my dog. You'll notice a lot of capitalization errors in this post. That's because august doesn't deserve capitals. august took something cool sounding (dog days of summer? Dogs are awesome!) and made it shitty. My A/C broke twice in august. august is the britta of months.
Which makes it so awesome that September is here! Halloween stuff has already started creeping back into the grocery stores around here. There's a ton of reasons why I like Halloween and September/October in general, but the biggest two relevant to this blog is 1) furries generally loosen up for once and write really awesome, freaky TF stories, which I'm hella into, and 2) seasonal halloween stores start popping up, which means costume hunting to my little gearhead heart's content.
Now, I don't know about furries in general, but for TF fans there's one question/forum thread/discord topic that reigns supreme. Which is, "How did you get into TF?" For me, the answer is horror movies/books. It's informed a lot of my kinks in general, and definitely influenced what I like about TF content. I haven't written anything horror-y yet, and honestly, I'm kinda scared to try. It's hard to pull off right. Since I'm writing more this year, maybe I'll do something for halloween. There's room for goofy horror, that might make for an easier start.
As it stands right now, I have two stories in the pipeline, both stalled because of writer's block. The first is MtF smut, I don't have any delusions about it being more than a means to an end. The second I've affectionately given a working title of "pretentious," and if it ever comes out, it's gonna be a long one. I'm having a hard time cutting corners. For example,the main character starts in one town and takes a carriage ride to another, where the story takes places over the course of a year or longer. How much time do I want to spend writing the first town? Right now it feels way too short, it's maybe a page. I have a problem with rushing, I think. Dialogue I can handle, it's the worldbuilding and the...immersiveness that will be the end of me. I exist in a weird spot where I know I couldn't pull off a story if it wasn't in the fandom, but at the same time, I want to get better. Good enough to self-publish something that doesn't involve furries at all, so when I do write furry stuff, -I- know it's good. I've got this nagging thought that people only like my stuff becuase it's part of a tiny niche. Practice makes perfect, I guess! Gotta be bad before I get good.
But, the good thing is, I have time. Time to sit and think and write and let it percolate for a bit.